assalamualaikum..Gosh..genap sebulan today...I go through hell to get to today..Not sleeping,waking up every night,feeling like crap,felt like my chest was about to burst,I screamedin my heart..There's even some nights yang I takleh tido..AT ALL!
I've lost almost 10kgs now...and I can't be bothered...I always have problem to loose weight,but now its easily gone...But it didn't matter know...If he is around,he would compliment me saying how good I look,how pretty I was..arghh..those good old days...
My darlin sweetheart,
Its a miracle that I managed to survive after 30 days without you..without hearing your voice,without feeling the warmth of your body...I missed everything about you...Your snoring used to be annoying sometimes but now..how I wished I could get up every morning hearing you snore beside me...I missed cooking for you..Gulai Ikan,Ayam Masak Merah,Sambal Sotong,Cucur Badak...Now,I just can't look at them..My tears will automatically run down...
You know what I missed about us?I missed salam you,cium tangan you and you kissed me before we go to worked..I miss you saying..Goodnight sayang,sweet dreams..I miss us holding hands while we slept..I missed us sharing the choc cake and ice cream at wagamama...
I never let someone this close to me....I never opened myself as I do with you..and I never loved someone as much as I loved you...and thats why...I can never imagine how human love could hurt me this much....You're the only one that can hurt me....always...
I'm sorry I still cried...so much..I know you wouldn't want me to be sad....to be this weak...But I can't help it..I'm so lost without you....This is insane,I know..It doesn't make sense...I still remember our first date,the perfume you wore..the shirt you wore..arggh..its too hurting for me right now...
My baby,damailah di sana...please wait for me..One fine day....We'll be together again...We missed you.....
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Salam,
Innalillah Hiwainna ilaihirojiun.
Kepadanya kita datang dan kepadanya kita kembali. Sesungguhnya ujian itu tidaklah sama ke atas seseorang. Dan sesungguhnya amtlah perit akan ujian yang ditanggung oleh meen. Namun begitu meen, setiap apa yg berlaku, ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Sesuatu yang kita tidak harapkan berlaku, meguji iman kita. Si sini ada dua perkara hasil dari ujian, samada iman kita akan meningkat atau menurun.
Meen, Bila Allah uji, kerana Allah sayang. Tetapi ujian jugak boleh membawa kepada kepahitan selamanya. Kenapa? kerana hidup kita di dunia ini hanyalah sementara. Yang prgi tetap pergi, tetapi yang tinggal perlu merenung kembali.
Dekatkanlah diri kepadanya Yang Maha Esa, Pencipta kita, Di mana kembalinya suami meed kepadaNya. Merayu dan menangislah kepadaNya Kalau meen tak dapat tidur malam, bangunlah ambil air sembahyang, sembahyanglah dua rakaat. Mohon lah kepada Allah yang Maha Esa. Bila seseorang itu meninggal, tiada apa yg di bawanya kecuali kenaikan dan amalan yang baik. Dan amalan yang baik inilah yang akan kekal menjadi penyelamat walaupun ketika kita telah tiada. Doa Meen akan di capai oleh suami. Bergerak menjadi isteri yang solehah dan mendidik anak menjadi anak solehah, itulah Hanya sanya yang akan kekal untuk arwah suami meen.
Meen, hidup ini hanya sementara, Tiada yang kekal seperti yg Meen juga tahu. Bukan sahaj arwah suami meen, tetapi kita sendiri jua akan pergi tinggalkan apa sahaja di dunia ini yang telah kita capai dan bertungkus lumus. Cuma dua perkara akan kita bawa, iman dan amal. Dan bahagialah sesiapa yang dapat membawa dua perkara ini dengan sempurna. Sesungguhnya,arwah Suami Meen pasti ingin menemui meen di pintu syurga, Syurga bukan datang dengan sendiri, tetapi harus di usahakan maka marilah kita sama sama berusaha, agar kita bersama , meen , kyra dan juga arwah suami meen dapat berjumpa bersama kelak di syurga. Dunia yang kita usaha semuanya akan kita tinggalkan..Dan Insya Allah syurga yg kita bina kelak adalah hasil usaha iman dan amal kita sekarang.
Semoga Meen tabah. Akak tinggal di North East of England We are settle here, If you wanted to come by, I am always open my hand to you and your daughter. If you need tome off, pelase do come. Email me at sofie_75 at yahoo dot co dot uk.
salam k meen..i've been following your blog silently. you are, definitely stronger than you thought you are. you are never alone in this as you still have your lovely daughter. and, memang suami k meen, tiada ganti... 30 days are mostly difficult times for you but, you went through it like no one else could. it is pointless comparing yourself with others who have loss their beloved ones as well, as diff ppl, go thru bereavement period differently. i wish i could give u a big hug (although we have never met).. and at least make the pain go away even for a minute. take care. we all know that you are very strong. pouring your feelings out does help a lot. try to think of the things that will give you the strength to move on. his strength will always be yours and yr daughter's.
Meen,
i feel for you too.it is 3 months for me today, still hard but i just deal with my pangs of sorrows when it comes. i know i have ALLAH to turn to. my kekasih always told me that ALLAH SWT will take care of me and our kids. and HE is, that's why i am still sanely insane...(i hope u know what i mean)..love you babe, take care dearest. HUGS-HUGS
hi dear...where have u been?havent update ur blog or ur fb...is everything ok?
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