Swear It All Over Again..

Assalamualaikum...Heyya You alls....sorry lama giler tak update my blog..Im so busy,tired,occupied...huhuhu..But my weekends were great..How bout you?It actually started with watching the Oscar Winning Film..Slumdog Millionaire...It was filmed in Mumbai,India...At 1st,im so sceptical bout the movie..nampak macam tak best but a few friends recommend it..so,arrghh,just give it a shot...Layan2 citer tuh,best giler plak,love the cinematography...its like the true atmosphere of India...those pemintak sedekah suma....It elaborates on true love also between Jamal and Latika,her childhood sweetheart....sentap jiwalah jugak filem nih especially if u watched it with ur loved ones....So my friends-apalagi,go and watch this movie..Its HIGHLY recommended!

On Saturday Me and Atirah we went to GSC OU to watch Geng Upin and Ipin,we're with Nida,Adam,her sis and her sis anak-anak...Like usual,I beli popcorn caramel,Atirah her fav drink apple aloe vera la...Both of us really enjoyed the movie..yeah,it was light,fun and hillarious...Its very MALAYSIAN larr...latar belakang pun kat kampung and hutan...I never liked 3D animation but this movie is an exception..So,bring ur children to watch it,they'll love it...My Darl sended me there,then boleh pulak mamat tu patah balik to Subang and wash his car then come back to One Utama to fetch us...He loves the driving.....After the movie,me and Nida we chit chat a bit then Darl datang and we went to cHiLLies..hahaha...oh ya,that afternoon i tak lunch haper pun,kembong perut melantak popcorn sajork....kat Chilies I ordered the steak burger..makan half jek,tatau napa,so and so jek the burger..Darl macam biasalah,smoked salmon,Atirah cheese pizza...Lupa nak bagitau,Milo suam kt Chillies segelas RM 6.75 kot..wakakaka..nasib kaw....huhuhu..

That night we went to Yaya for dinner....macam biasa,Cencaru Bakar,Sup ekor and telo dadar..ok la,cuma aku hangin bab air..aku ordered teh ice..bila sampai its so damn sweet..macamana diorang buat air aku pun tatau..Then we asked the waitress to take it back and redo the drink..sampai jek my new tea ice,pahit pulak,tak rasa gula and susu langsung...haru jek..tension aku,stress pun ada.....last2 what I do tau,aku mintak air gula and ice..then aku throw half of the drink on the road near our table then start making my own teh ice..perghh..baru stim and kaw..haru jek,air pun tak reti bancuh....I noticed now if we ate outside,the food pun so and so jek,maybe diorang cut the ingredient kot due to the economy situation..air pun cair jek...My Darl cakap,elokla,lepas nih masak umah jek,dah tentu sedap walaupun just telo mata and sardine..hati puas,babe...

On Sunday,Darl pegi hantar barang,aku lepak umah reading papers and taught Atirah maths..hape punya cikgulah,nak ajar budak Odd numbers and Even numbers pun taktau...ntah haper2...I spend nearly 2 hours covers all the topics with Atirah..Her exam was next week...yelah,kenalah tutor jugak,kan..nanti result dia 'kureng' kena kutuk plak kat blakang...konon result dia tak bestla,haperlah..haru jek...I think my daughters result is no ones bussines..Its my child,aku yg susah payah for her..me and Darl..so,me and her dad je ada right to criticise watso ever bout her..no one else..lagi-lagi yang tak pernah call ambik tau psl her,kan..tak pernah nak ambik berat psl her school..then tetiba bila dia dapat exam result,tau nak hentam ajer..Sending her to watso ever school is up to us..Im paying for her fees...I worked..so hard 4 my daughter's education....kalau tak puas ati,then lantaklah...I didnt ask ur money pun...Lagi atu,time we all susah,time Atirah is sick when she was a baby,you never there pun,and SELAMBA jek tak bagi we all nak pinjam RM10 nak beli panadol syrup for her..so,sebenarnya,now you have no right pun nak minta apa-apa from us....but..we're not the berdendam type...we do forgive you but not forget...Sorry frens,ter 'emo' jap..geram sebenarnya..takpelah Allah Maha Adil...selagi kita tak dengki or busuk ati denan orang,insya Allah rezeki tuh tak putus......

Oh ya,we bought this series called Weeds...kat Mesia nih susah nak cari that series coz it is a bout this single mother jual marijuana to support her children suma...Its a comedy..Its fun to watch..kitorang just habiskan season 1 and starting season 2 soon....I had a really good day yesterday...a very intimate one...Im loving my husband so much...semalam rasa macam time bercinta pulak..and I remmembered this song called Swear It All Over Again from Westlife..Its like OUR song dulu..huhuhu..we were so much in love back then,we hope this love we had will be stronger coz im in love with him...alhamdulillah my life is back to normal.....So you all,take care yeah..chiowz

Redha....

Hmm..tadi kat office i was so busy plus tak dpt cari mood to update my blog..I was not well sehari dua nih,dengan period,senggugut..dengan kat ofis auditor masuk nak audit akaun ...Bengang jek aku,taula keje audit,nak cari salah orang jer...Hari nih aku terkenang my previous life...Why?because hari ini I was put to a test again...Did I tell you that year 2008 was hell to me?I was in deep shit..serious chaos....Hidup aku tunggang terbalik sebenarnya tahun 2008..aku gagahkan juga,eventhough sometimes I loose patience..most of the time i just breakdown and cry...

Life is not easy for me..Dulu masa early stage of marriage,I was tested by Allah dengan kesusahan hidup....sampai last-last tinggal 0.70 sen jek dalam poket..Tapi Alhamdulillah,setelah lahir atirah,my life changed..to better...syukur ya allah....Last year I was tested to the max,macam2 benda jadi kat aku..pasal orang lain sebenanrnya,aku macam aku,im a normal human being...Its just kadang I have to deal with irrational and abnormal person who has a split personality....I dont wanna think bout last year,it hurts....really bad...There's this evil trapped inside someone whom Im close with..aku jer yang tau....

As i thought that hell has gone,its not actually,Its still there,haunting me sometimes...Now its here again...kalau orang lain,I dont think they wud survive the pain,but me,Im a taurus sign,Im a bull,Im a strong person,walaupun dalam kekuatan,aku menangis....Rasa nak mengadu pada Penciptaku,tapi dah period,tak dapat nak baca Quran and zikir and solat.....Hmmm,Ya Allah,kau berilah kekuatan pada makhlukmu menghadapi dugaan ini sekali lagi....Hmmm,I need to take my bath now,need to fetch Atirah from mandarin class later.....See ya again...a

Alive...

Heya all....Hmm..Cant believe how busy I was lately,banyaknya benda pending,dengan auditor nak audit accounts lagi,dgn nak prepare cheque supplier lagi,dengan nak buat claim lagi..Suma memenatkan dan memeningkan kepala hotak hokay....But on top of all,Im glad,busy means I have work..having work or a job means I will be paid,I will get my salary,and with my salary,I can save and use it to continue life....

Being busy,means I'm not dead..means im still ALIVE..Syukur Alhamdulillah,aku masih bernyawa lagi,walaupun my life kadang haru biru..upside down..tapi I know ramai lagi kat luar sana yang lagi teruk dari aku..

Me and hubby had pizza for lunch and chicken Lasagna..Not bad la...though I selalu makan beef lasagna jek...Rupanya chic lasagna pun boleh layann jugak..I cancelled Atirah Mandarin class for today coz pity her last week,balik school tak sempat makan,kelam kabut took her bath then berkejar ke Mandarin Class ulak,so im gonna change her class to other day...Bagi dia some rest..We planned nak bawak dia pegi watch Upin Ipin movie but belum ada time...Kadang time ada,but malas pulak nak kuar umah...

Oh yess,today I spend nearly 4k to pay my loans and bills..We needed almost 5K to settle our commitments every month..banyak tuh...but what to do,kena ada car to move around and house for berlindung dari hujan panas,kan....I almost forgot that I HAVENT book hotels and car for our Singapore trip..Haru!Dok busy dengan macam2 hal,sampai lupa nak booking..But dont think ada masalah 4 late booking since we're going on weekdays,kan....I think jadi kot book Park Royal..and car ambik dengan Avis jer...

Our Fridge at home pulak rosak,someone from the electrical shop will pick it up today and fix it..Manalah nak taruk all my stuff in the fridge,my darl janji nak tolong kemas fridge tuh..harap2 he didnt throw all my spices...

We're planning to go away this weekend,either to Ipoh or PD..PD pa kes lagi selain dari dah lama tak fihing,kan...Ipoh sebab teringin nak makan nasmir nasik Kandaq..weh,the honey chicken is heaven!sedap sangat..I dont undrstand what happend to me,dulu lepas gave birth to Tirah,Tak teringin langsung nak makan mamak,but since last year jadi gila plak nak makan mamak's food..So,kalau teringin,we all kena pegi Penang makan sSubaidah,tapi lepas makan Nasmir hari tuh,rasa syok pulak...telur sotong,honey chicken and kuah hitam..wahh..terliur dah..

Im gonna need to find more money,for my Singapore Trip,my father in law punya kebun,for my car absorber..Wished money just falls from sky or boleh petik kat pokok jek...hahaha..Semalam boleh tak I really teringat kat bountiful Ribs..berhantu sungguhla that Ribs...yummy dummy...

Okla,rasanya tuh jek yang I sempat blog 4 today..nanti next time I try blog banyak sket..Bye all..

Wonderful Weekends....

Heya.....I dont know where to start actually..But here it goes,I went to my hometown Bangi on Friday night to visit my old family friends..Aunty Nik and Uncle Pokya...Their daughter,Min and her hubby was also there...Its been a long time,it was 11 years ....last saw them masa Im in UM doing my pre law...Min baru kahwin last year and tengah pregnant now..tunggu hari jer...She was so tall...We shared old stories....about our family vacations in Medan,Fraser's Hill,Cameron Highlands,Pangkor and Tioman..Those were the best days of my life.....I was young,naive and jovial...We even talked bout my papa..and i nearly cried...but the truth was,I cried while driving on my way back to Subang....Its too personal 4 me to share.....Oh ya,my hubby went back at nearly 2am that night...after lost on his way back from Kuang...Im too tired actually..to get mad...plus im in a sad situation,so,no need to get angry...eventhough he promised wud be back at 12..but its ok,he went out probably once a year..the reason dia late is because his friends that they supposed to meet reached at 11pm..all the way from JB..so,xkan nak borak for half an hour,since jumpa pun once a year,kan..so,I forgave him..small matter..:)

On saturday,we woke up a bit late since I terpaksa berjaga wait 4 my hubby..around 3am baru tido...then we went to British Council,dalam keta munch roti butter...lapik perut...It was quick at British Council,gave my IC,dia terus pass the envelope containing my IELTS result..hate my picture on the certs...chubby gegiler,...hahaha.....After that,we went to the gardens @ Mid Valley city...we wanna try out the ribs in Tony Roma's...agak full jugak the place..I ordered bountiful Ribs and Onion Loaf,Atirah Cheese pizza and darl Smoked Salmon...wah the bountiful ribs was heaven!!!highly recommended!!!..It was juicy,tender...it was like..arrgghh..to good to be true..the Onion Loaf was great..Hubby compliment the Salmon and Atirah loved her pizza...plus the drinks are refillable...so,why wait?Try it urself...I was too full..nasib tak ambik ribs yg 5 pcs..yang 3 pcs pun tak larat nak finish....We went back after that,so tired...while resting,something happend between me and someone,which at 1st very hurtful...then things get really damn ugly..Im so glad,it then ended and we said sorry to each other...I hate to get into a fight with anyone becoz im a very defensive person,If Im hurt,I will make sure the oher one will feel the pain too..Im so bad when Im mad..I'll say things...But its hard to make me mad,I'd probably get mad once or twice a year..I mean really mad......After resting and doing some reading,we went out to Mydins to buy our business stuff..banyak giler,spend nearly 1k...penuh boot keta...plus penat giler...Rushing sangat to eat at Dine Out since the restaurant close at 10.30...We arrived there around 10pm..terus order my fav food...Fried kailan,Mongolian Chicken and Sweet and Sour Fish..These 3 combinations are to die for..hahaha..exagerrate giler!

Then after eating balik umah and watch movie..citer Fracture..Atirah was there but suddenly she stopped commenting on the movie,rupa2nya dah tido..sambil duduk pulak..Hmm..pity her..mesti too tired coz she helped me a lot in Mydin..Im so glad I have her...Eventhough selalu tak sebulu dengan dia,she was always there..when i needed help,needed a shoulder to cry on...she's a good daughter...love her to death!

Sunday...ada 2 family tengok my house..we are selling our house...so that we cud get some cash..kalau2 jadi ke UK nanti...It was ok.....that evening we went to Bangi and have dinner at Bangi Golf Resort..Usual order-black pepper beef,sweet souf fish and kailan...After that went back and watch a good movie tittled Switchback kat channel 412 kot ASTRO..we then go to sleep at 12.30am...There goes my weekends...It was ok...chiow bebeh

Dreams......

Everybody have a dream.....Mine was to pursue my study In UK...This i becoz UK education is the only one which is recognized around the world....Before I apply 4 the Uni,I need to sit for IELTS examination in British Council..I took the test on 31st jan 2009..and got the result today...I was scared at 1st...I thought that I might get 4.0 or highest 5.0..Though in my heart,I knew I did my best already but I understand how high the english standard was...sigh....So,here we go..I get 7.0 bandswith..Alhamdulillah..I can even apply for Oxford...hahaha....I nak ucap Thank you to my hubby yang sanggup teman I masa speaking test,masa test bertulis...siap tolong jadi interviewer lagiks...Im glad you were there Darl..cant imagine going through it by myself.....

The next step for me is to complete my UCAS application and apply to the Uni..I havent made up my mind yet...kena survey tempat,access to halal food,school 4 my Atirah...kepala pun dah pening dah nie..I think going away from Malaysia for a while is what I need right now...I wanna gain new experience in other countries..Im planning to travel to France, Holland, Switzerland, Norway...Since I memang kaki berjalan..like to see people's places...teringin nak tengok Eiffel depan mata...London Bridge....Leaning Tower Of Pisa.....Gosh,its once in a lifetimes experince...kena grab!......

Oh yes,I bought flight tix to Singapore already,we are going there on the 8th..Hotel not yet book,but dah survey online yesterday,need to pay my credit card so that i can secure the hotel and car rental bookings...I kinda like Park Royal@ the beach Road..Kat sini pun,my family memang suka stay at Park Royal..We love the room...So, after convert2 dengan duit Malaysia..I need to have around RM3k jugakla..Hotel dah nearly RM1k,Car Rental around RM600..Yang lebih for Taxi,Food and Souvenir..We all tak plan pun nak shopping bagai there..just nak sight seeing since Darl dgn atirah tak pernah pegi Singapore..I just plan to buy apa lagi?Fridge magnet la...or maybe selai 2 baju.....

Im kinda worried jugak this time..sebabnya,I have a plane phobia..sejak I watched Air Crash Investigation kat TV,terus phobia nak naik plane...takut2 i kena panic attack pulak nanti...oh gosh..or shud I take Xanax 1st?arrgghh...the other reason we wanna go 2 Singapore is that I want to practice naik plane,kot2 jadi pegi UK,kan..kang teruk pulak I..so,this is like a practice,I kena lawan my phobia nih...Please pray 4 me.....

My hubby ada gathering tonight dengan his old mate from Uitm...Im not sure what 2 do lagi today,no plans yet...I'll think of something...hihihi...ok everyone,Happy Weekends ya..Chiows bebeh..

Loved Ones......

Hi again.....Its Friday again...How time flies.....Its February already....This year its gonna be my 9th anniversary with my Darl....Macam tak percaya pun ada...Dulu ingat marriage nih seronok jek..After 9 years,baru lah tau langit tuh tinggi ke rendah...Lately,banyak sangat benda yg people speculate boyt me..konon dah berlagak,suka cakap besar....Iskh..Im just my old self..tapi org suka sgt buat assumption tak lok psl me...But,Im not gonna let it bring eme down..Time aku susah x makan,bukan korang bagi aku makan pun..Im going to move on and cherish what I have now...

Im going back to my kampung in Cherating tomorrow..Dah mintak my Makteh masakkan laun yg i teringin..teruk,kan?Datang umah orang,siap ada wish lagi..hihi..forgive me..sini kat Subang,hari-hari layan Mamak..dah jemu....Going to stay in Swiss Garden Resort...since hanya ada 1 jek bilik tamu at maktehs,and im bringing my cousin,Risah with me as well..bagi lah dia tido that room....Lagipun,me and my Darl dah plan nak lepak main pool and tengok live band kat Swiss Garden...pasal citer tido umah orang nih, ramai yang suka salah sangka pada kami,ada yg even accused us x nak tido their house pasal takda aircond la...pasal tak da class la..sebenanrnya tuh semua salah..1st of all,the reason we all tak tido umah orang is becoz tak nak susahkan sesapa...nak kena sediakan tilam,bantal,toto and selimut..then nak kena prepare food 4 us during the stay,plus tak nak gv any reason to anybody to mengungkit in the future...manusia,kan.....Me and hubby nih bukanlah kaya sangat nak tido hotel every time we travel,tapi macam yang di kata,tak suka nak susahkan orang.....

Walaupun ada jugak yang tak faham2 setelah di explain banyak kali,takpelah,macam I kata tadi,Life goes on.....Lama jugaklah I tak balik my own kampung....since we head north all the time...to Ipoh,Perlis,Penang and Langkawi..so,belah Timur nih jarang-jarang skali...The reason I go back selain nak visit my makteh,its regarding my worm business..nak pegi tengok ladang cacing I..yelah,dah invest, takkan nak lepas tangan jek..kena gak turun padang tengok,kan.....Im planning to buy the Singapore flight tickets in Kuantan airport as well..kot-kot ticketing office tuh tak ramai orang,kan......hihihi...

My life has been wonderful so far...except for a few bumps....biasalah,mana da manusia yang perfect..Oh yes,yesterday register Kyrana 4 her Mandarin class...for 12 lessons is RM450 kot..expensive,kan...tapi takpelah,duit boleh cari..I want my daughte to learnmandarin from scratch..She learned Mandarin at school but she can understand it becoz no basics...so,I really hope she cud get better grades in Mandarin after attending this class....She's going to be very busy starting next month..She has her gymnastics class,ballet class,mandarin class and mengaji and agama class...For all her classes,I need to have RM1k in hand.....Its hard..with the economic uncertainties..but for her,we gonna try our best....

Lately,in the news or among my friends..ramai betol yang bercera-berai..Sometimes,I pulak yg Phobia...Frankly speaking,Im scared too......Ada yg bercerai lepas a year of marriage,ada yg after 2 years...Biasanya this people will blame the other side la..manusia macam tulah,suka point fingers...But then,pernah tak kita muhasabah diri kita?We often see other people's mistakes,but us?It can be the husbands or wifes yang cheating,irresponsible,liars,drinking problem,playboy...all sort of problems...Dulu I never realize this..I often tell my darl that he changed...dari person yg I've known masa bercinta stage....I think he is less caring and bad tmpered..But then,He told me that I've changed too..Im not that soft spoken girl he's in love before..And he said Im fierce now!wakaka...Then barula I sedar,both of us memang melalui that changing phase...This change due to our responsibilities,financial,family and other factors....Some people suka blame husband kononnya the husband irresponsible,bad,full of anger,not helpful,etc..tapi,as a wife,baik sangat ke kita?ada tak kita bangun pagi2 prepare breakfast for husband?mandikan,siapkan anak?cook husband's and anak's favourite dish?kemas umah?Some people dont,ada yang maid buat,ada yang masih suruh parents buat...Yang husband pun ada yang tuduh wife pemalas,pasif,tak cantik,not understanding...you urself tuh dah perfect sangat ker?are you a responsible husband and father?If you pun tunggang-terbalik,then dont just blame ur wife...

Im so glad that I saw my daughter grows in front of me...I dont have maid or anybody else to take care of my daughter..Oh yes,teringat my officemate's story,she let her mom to take care of her anak since baby,then when dia nak amik balik her anak,her daughter tak nak dah dgn dia..sampai berguling-guling atas tanah tak nak ikut dia blik..her anak nak mandi and tukar pampers pun dgn grandma..dengan mak sendiri she doesnt want anymore..sometimes if the daugher wakes up in the middle of the night,tak nampak her grandma,nampak her mom,terus melalak...if her mom yg tepuk dia balik,she will never sleep back....My officemate sedih sebenarnya,tapi nasik dah jadi bubur..its her fault..coz dari baby dia dah pass anak dia tuh her mom..most of the time,dia biar anak dia tido at her mom's house,dia balik berdua tido dgn husband...jadi,all the blame is on her..now budak tuh dah besar and kenal orang,of course dia ingat her grandma tuh her momla....

Asking your maid or your mom taking care of ur child is not wrong,tapi you have to take charge...spend time with ur child...jangan biar sampai ur child tk kisah if you're not there..jgn biar ur child needs her grandma more than you...lagipun kesianlah dengan ur mom..dah tua-tua nak kena jaga cucu...they shud rest and beribadah jer not basuh ur childs poops at the age of 70!Ada orang yang suka jadikan anak as accessories...ada yang pregnant and get married for wrong reasons also..tengok semua cousins kahwin,dia pun nak kawin..tengok semua siblings and friends prenant,dia pun nak pregnant..tapi tak pernah ready to be a wife and a mother...Ada my friend mengadu,her mom sampai tak boleh pegi melawat anak-anak lain sebab nak jaga 1 particular cucu...padahal mak budak tuh ada,boleh jaga anak sendiri..tau apa jawapan my friends mom,mak kandung budak tuh tak boleh di harap nak jaga anak dia sendiri...iskh..sedih dengar citer my friend...anak sedara dia tuh besar dah,bukan baby lagi,tapi adik dia yg umur 35 thun tuh tak boleh handle anak sendiri..reasons is mak dia yg jaga budak tuh dari baby...and budak tuh tak nak dgn mak dia sendiri pasal dari kecik pun tido bawah ketiak nenek...Oh god....

Semoga apa yang i blog today boleh kita jadikan pengajaran....Take care of ur own child..They need your love...jangan dump them to ur parents or maid....ok,Happy weekend semua..chiow..

Life..Hypocracy...Human

Hi all...sorry not able to blog..its been a while since my last post..selain busy,susah nak cari mood actually..plus penat,plus so many things nak kena settle..Did I tell you all I already got my Passport..Alhamdulillah...plus x kena apa2 denda..syukur sangat..blehla I layan Singapore lepas nih....
I went to Langkawi for CNY holiday..I finally took my IELTS test last week..susahnya...harap2 boleh lepas 6.5 bandswith and above..seramnya.....Hope all that I planned jadi kenyataanla hendaknya.....Macam2 benda jadi to me actually...yang lain tuh ala2 tak important sangat..tapi ada 1 kes yg piss me off la jugak....I tak faham why orang kena ada assumption yg buruk pasal another human being.....I memang lemas....plus benci sangat manusia plastik...so naive lookin but often attacked you from behind..
I memang dah kenalpasti orang nih...sejak I tau dia forward my msg to other human being yg tengah gaduh dengan I.....boleh tak dia pegi forward sumer personal things i pada si polan tuh?I pun tak tau apa agenda dia...maybe dengki tengok kebahagiaan I which dia tak dapat kecap kot....That was the very last time Im gonna trust her..tapi,since that day,dia susah pun I sanggup tolong gak..kadang I nih pun tonggong gak.......kesian punya pasal..tapi takpelah,Tuhan Maha Mengetahui......
Si Polan nih now is playing religious card.....Hello?I mungkin tak pakai tudung,tapi I tak pernah buat benda haram...insy I solat dengan puasa tuh insy i dapat buat..tapi I heran si polan nih puasa pun x pernah cukup tiap2 tahun...tapi bercakap macam bagus sangatt..teruknya....I biar jelah...malas nak layan orang yang pendek akal...
I malas nak balas dendam kat orang walaupun my heart ache sangat..tapi takpe,I ada tuhan..Allah Maha Mengetahui..I tengok dia memang dah dibalas atas dosa dia dulu ...I harap dia segeralah sedar....I tak pernah minta pujian atas apa yang i pernah tolong dia,tapi janganlah sanggup betray I...janganlah ada persepsi buruk pada I..Mungkin rezeki I lebih sekarang,itupun atas kerja keras dan usaha I..bukan inherit ker atau jatuh dari langit...i takda orang yang I boleh bergantung harap macam dia...semua pun sendiri jer...I masih My own self macam dulu..tak berubah pun... Senang ke,susah ker,I know where I came from..semua manusia sama di sisi Allah..mungkin I agal selesa sekarang,itu pun seleps susah bertahun2..Tuhan Maha Adil....
Apapun,harap insan tuh sedar yang I tau apa dia buat di belakang I....Tak payah pura-pura baik,cakap lemah lembut depan I...Belakang I,I tau you macamana..Sebab you..almost ruined my life..Apa yang you buat pada I memang tak boleh dimaafkan....My relationship with someone important in my life nyaris rosak sebab pengkhianatan yang you buat pada I.......Its hurting since I assume you as a friend whom I trust.......Chiow