We Gotta Fight..

Heya..Salam Merdeka everyone..Semoga kemerdekaan ini membawa erti yang lebih mendalam especially dalam memerdekakan pemikiran kita..For me,life is not easy..maybe it was before I got married..i dont have to think about a place for shelter,food,money..Semua dah disediakan oleh my parents.But after i got married, me and my husband..we have to manage our own life..

Like everyone else,our life is full with ups and downs..Sometimes when it gets tough,I just break down and cry.. yeah,saya memang suka nangis dulu..For me crying is a way of me to release all my emotions. Life here in UK pon nampak fun but its not easy as well..lainla kalau I dah grad and dah ada stable work and income,then memang life here will be more enjoyable ..As for now,as a student,yang tak ditaja sepenuhnya oleh anyone, memang life is tough..Mostly orang lain yang ditaja,weekends boleh shopping2 kat carboot,time holiday boley pegi jalan sana-sini..Some of these students don't work because they don't have too..they received around 750 pounds allowance..then gaji kat malaysia still jalan lagi..However,tuh pon they all complained tak cukup..But tak nak kerja..Agaknya kalau they all in my shoes,kan..how,lah?

Life is full of obstacles,but i believe that when there's a will,there's a way..banyak benda yang impossible pada mata kasar but possible akhirnya..I thank Allah for that..and i believe my parents restu and doa pon contribute   as well..So,sangat syukur...I tried so hard to stay positive all the time walaupun macam2 dugaan yang datang..

last year..one year ago,my husband sorang aja yang kerja..we all terpaksa jimat sampaikan tea bags tuh guna 2,3 kali..heater pasang just time nak tidur walaupun terketar-ketar time winter..makan luar sebulan sekali..tengok wayang pon sama..Then bila I dah start kerja,baru okay our life..and my salary pon memang okay sangat..Sometimes I got so exhausted..juggling work,studies,family...Pagi pergi class,then balik pegi keja,then balik keja,masak..uruskan rumah pulak..hadoilah..but I always believe that usaha itu tangga kejayaan,insya Allah..So sekarang I berpegang pada pepatah susah dahulu,senang kemudian...:)

My life is crazy I tell you..really..Me and my husband pernah tinggal 70 cents in our pocket..then minum air paip to quench our thirst..dari that 70 cents we build our life and work hard until we earn 5 figures of income in Malaysia...Then we got tired of being comfortable and decided to sell everything and migrate here..Walaupun terpaksa start from zero again,I never regret our decission..Insya Allah niat yang baik itu akan mendapat balasan yang baik juga..So,here I am,dah tua-tua pon still belajar lagi tak habis2...:P

Ok gals,banyak dah membebel nie..so,nak cerita what we had for buka puasa yesterday..Ada repeat request for my Sambal sotong,so I pon buatlah Nasi Lemak Sambal Sotong for berbuka semalam...:-

Eh,ni kat malaysia ke kat UK nie?Siap daun pisang bagai..:P...Happy Holiday yeah everyone...:)

Hurt and Forgiveness..

Salam Monday dear readers..Thank you for your concern,alhamdulillah I'm gettin better and syukur that I'm ok now..:) I'm so touched with all the warm wishes..Today I choose to talk about being hurt and forgiveness..I'm sure that everyone of us..at some point of our lives,know what its like to be hurt.Its not a very wonderful feelings,huh? Some were hurt by friends,colleagues,families or even spouses. And us being a normal human-being pun maybe secara sengaja or not maybe pernah hurt someone in our life..

How do you deal with the broken heart?I'm sure yang dah kahwin tuh mesti pernah at least once terluka dengan perlakuan or perkataan pasangan masing-masing,kan? Being a Taurean, its not easy for me to just kiss and forget..pendendam woh taurean nih..haru sungguh..I've been hurt once or twice or maybe more in our 10 years marriage..But nothing serious..Biasalah,sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit,kan..I pon pernah jugak sakitkan hati my husband..especially masa pms..huhuhu..So today I wanna share some tips on how to forgive..especially after you've been hurt :-             

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Forgiveness is a choice-means you can decide whether or not to forgive someone. The operative word here is, choice! Having choice allows us a sense of freedom. This may give us a feeling of control over our emotions, over our situation, and in some cases over the outcome. When we forget that we have a choice we leave ourselves open to feeling trapped which in some cases can lead to depression.

The issue of control--Generally, there is very little in life that we have control over. Many times, control is an illusion. People like to think they have control because it can make them feel safe. We attempt to control things in life to create security. Most of us do the best we can, but regardless things can happen that are beyond our control. This is also true of the people we love.

Forgiveness can't be bargained--Unconditional forgiveness means that we have come to accept the other person, their choice and the outcome without exception. Frequently there is a large gap between wanting to forgive someone and acceptance. Most people think of forgiveness as "black and white;" either you forgive me or you don't. Sometimes it isn't that simple, and the situation doesn't call for either/or.

Forgiveness is a process--Initially we may feel that pull between what we think logically, and what we feel emotionally! We can be split and say to ourselves, "I want to forgive him, but..."--or "I still love her, but I am so mad at her!" Next, we may go through the motions of saying the words, but not really feeling that we forgive.

Working through the anger--Recognizing that we are angry is an important step because it allows us to have a choice in the matter. Understanding our anger can open the door for communication and bring us toward intimacy. We need to ask ourselves if the anger is valid? We also need to decide whether the anger is reasonable and whether or not it is appropriate. Asking yourself what do you want to do about it, can help focus the anger so that we can motivate ourselves to make healthy choices. Using the anger for revenge is never acceptable!

Expectations of change--Forgiving someone because you expect them to change doesn't work. It is a set up for you and for them! On occasion, the person may decide to change, but that it their choice. You can't control their choice! Forgiving, just because you want them to change isn't really forgiveness, it is manipulation. The end result will be resentment for both parties.

Sources-www.ehow.com

I'm not sure if ada some of you yang pernah go thru a cheating husband..I can't imagine how it must feel..I syukur that I belum pernah go thru that kinda experience and I pray that I never will...I can't comment on forgiving a cheating husband as if I'm in your shoes pon its gonna be really hard for me to forgive and forget..takat terasa hati sikit2 ada lah...

As an imperfect human-beings,I do hurt some important people in my life..which I regret so much..i'm trying so hard to become a better person..but along the way,I've made some big silly mistakes,thus,hurt some people in my life. I'm hoping there's still space for forgiveness for me..But i do believe,apa yang berlaku,ada hikmahnya..And tuhan ada sebab kenapa Dia menjadikan sesuatu..If we believe in qada' and Qadar,insya Allah dunia ini akan lebih sempurna..

So friends,lets forgive and forget..sempena bulan baik dan syawal yang bakal menjelma..Happy Workin peeps..Owh,I sahur dengan quaker oat aja tadi..tryin to cut off some more weight..Pray for me!

A Beautiful Day..

Heya,at the time of this entry,2 beranak tuh is in sleeping mode,terbongkang lepas sahur tadi..nanti I ambik gambar Kyra muka toya puasa ek..hehehe.Hows your raya preparation?Mine takda apa pon,baju kurung pakai last year punya and dah longgar since I lost a few kgs..Kyra ada 3 pasang,1 kebaya nyonya,1 kebaya and 1 baju kurung..Still fit..as I purposely bought a bigger size last year,dia lagilah tak bertambah berat,melompat aja 24 hours..iskh..

Did I tell you its very tough fasting here in UK?17 hours wooo..adoi,time cold weather ok lagie,time heatwave tuh,menduga keimanan betul lahh..However,now as we're nearer to Autumn takda sangatlah panas..Yesterday,which is Friday is a beautiful day for me albeit the rain we had since morning. i was waiting fo something yesterday and it arrived in the morning.After that,my friend Cindy called all the way from New York.Cindy is my mate in Convent dulue..She taught me some Chinese before..than gelak-gelak macam gila..We spoke over the phone for almost half an hour..Mind you,this is the 1st time we spoke after 12 years macamtuh..so,happy la..best pompuan tuh sekarang stay in New York..She has been there for almost 6 years and she enjoyed her life style there..

Tomorrow is my off day,nak tag along my husband to Lotus track..Then maybe will bring Kyra to the nearby zoo or play barn..We're planning to go somewhere for holiday before Kyra goes back to school in September..Maybe Bristol or Bath..and who knows,it might be Edinburgh or Portsmouth..Tapi nak cari place yang easy to find Halal food lah..:)

Today I'll let you enjoy some of the photos we took in Sheffield the other day,okay..Tak banyaklah,enjoy...:-

Our hotel..Holiday Inn Royal Victoria sheffield..I would promote this hotel as the room is very spacious,bathroom is a good size and staffs are friendly..Situated betul-betul in the heart of Sheffield..nice views as well..Our room which is a Family room costs us 69 quids..For me worth it..:)

Can you see the decoration is very Victorian?hehehe,I like..for me classic and sedap mata memandang..

Me and Kyra in the hotel lobby..while waiting for Mr hubby punggah bag from the car..

Kyra near Sheffield eye..We bought some souvenir and postcards from the shop accross the road in the picture..:)

So,darlings thats it for today..Will update again Monday insy..Selamat bershopping pada yang dah start Hari Raya preps yeah..Daaaaaaaaa

Food Galore in Manchester..

Salam Jumaat my dear readers..haih,duduk tak duduk,dah Friday again,kan? This 2,3 days weather here agaks kurang memberangsangkan..it was raining all day..since yesterday..Typical British weather..Summer is coming to an end..and autumn is approaching..Arrghhh..nooo....I love summer! Except when we got this terrible heat wave,macam nak pitam dehydrate..adoila..

I love summer because 9pm pon still cerah lagi outside..kalau dah nak masuk winter tue,kul 3.30pm dah macam malam dah..haru sungguh,nak drive pon malas...time snow lagilah,jalan slippery gegiler,selalu keta i skidded..then nak kena de-ice kereta lagi..mana taknya penuh dengan snow bila bangun pepagi nak pegi class..

The other day as you know we went to Sheffield,ada keja skets..Dah tuh terus lajak ke manchester..ada orang tue nak pegi Old Trafford..peminat tegar Man Utd la katakan...:P .So,we all took the tour package,adult 2,1 child..semua sekali I think around less than 40 pounds kot..Oklah,setahun sekali..:P

Nanti I update about that in other entry yer?Today nak cerita pasal break fast in Chinese restaurant in manchester..halal punyalah..This restaurant is called Ocean Treasure..near Hilton Manchester.This is our 1st time there,so no expectationlah kan..kalau tak sedap pon..nasibbb..huhuhu..

Surprisingly the food was good..damn good,okay! haih,now dah addicted pulak dengan Crispy Peking Duck dier..sangat mengujakan! Below are the food that we have the other day:-

Crispy Duck..Rupa dia like that because the waiter dah siap siat-siat for us..btw,the waiter is from taiping,Perak..syok boley speaking malay..hehehehehe.

The Crispy Duck above came with a pancake warps..so,letak itu duck dalam ini pancake,put some cucumber,spring onion,put the sauce,balut and ngappp..heaven!! My 1st experience...:)

Stir Fry Chicken..This is a package..Fried Rice and this Chicken is only 5 pounds..If nak makan,datang time lunch as its about 30% cheaper,nie waiter tu pesan kat I la..but janganla time bulan puasa kan..:P

Deep Fry squids..Sotong tepung daaaa..sedap sangat..iskh..taktau nak explain,but memang gebusssss!!!

Siew Mai Dim Sum..boley makan tanpa ragu-ragu yer as semua Dim Sum adalah HALAL.I siap tapau sos Crispy Duck cecah Dim Sum..hahahha..

Oppss..nie gambar dua orang chenta hatiku..cantik kan deko restaurant tuh..sesapa nak direction,please lemme know yeah..Owh,I ada ambik gambar Hilton Manchester yang sangat unique designnya..Tengok nie..:-

Cantik,kan??? Sorry pics not that clear as it was raining at that time..plus the car was moving quite fast..But still..unique,kan..Will update bout our old Trafford Tour insya Allah next time,kay?Happy weekends babes!

Typical Malay in Gomen's Office

Heya you all..Hows ur puasa so far,mine is ok..today I masak 3 jenis benda,but serawa pisang tak sempat snap..habis dah..hehehhe..I sebenarnya relieved tau I gotta blog..I choose to write about my life and things around me..mostly benda yang bothers me..

I used to work in a government office..as kuli ajalah,bukan pegawai Gred A tuh..so memanglah I dikelilingi pegawai sokongan Gred N,W and ke bawah..I memang tak close dengan any of them except for one or 2..Why? because I tak suka nak melepak sejam lebih kat pantry for breakfast then disambung dengan mengumpat session..Usually I akan makan breakfast at my own desk or my husband will pick me up then we dine outside.Then time I dah habis kerja pon I tak suka nak pegi mengendeng kat meja colleague and mula buka cerita..

Buka cerita apa? Ala..benda-benda biasa lah yang jadi bahan mengumpat,contohnya si A laki dia main kayu 3,si B nak kahwin lagi satu,si C pakai handbag LV fake beli kat PS boutique,si D beli gelang baru kat Habib Jewels,si E tukar keta baru,si F baru bercerai..Those kinda things..I usually the last one to know pasal I memang tak ambik port.Dari dulu I memang kurang kawan because I tak suka nak join orang kondem and ngumpat orang lain..Orang-orang ginilah typical malay yang keja kat gomen.Bukan semua,yeah,jangan pulak sesapa terasa.I cuma share kisah tempat kerja lama I..Yang breakfast 2 jam,lunch lajak sampai 3.30pm especially hari Jumaat,time takda keja bukak meja jual kain,jual kuih,jual tupperware...then time jaja cerita orang,terjuih-juih mulut kak Kiah tuh ha..Hadoila...

Dulu I ingat I datang UK,takda lah berjumpa dengan orang-orang low mentality gini..rupanya ada jugak sesat sekor dua kat sini..sekor dua yang suka nak melagakan sesama Islam,nak mengata orang tak tahu hujung pangkal,nak menuduh orang dengikan dia..padahal tak hingin pon,kalau kau cun macam Megan Fox ok jugak,or kaya macam janda Tiger woods yang nak dapat 64 million tuh lain la..Ntahla apa kejadahnya nak accuse orang dengki kat dia..Macam ginilah manusia,makin tinggi belajar,makin otak letak kat lutut..hadoila,nak lari dari typical malay tuh,ada jugak kat uk nie..Orang-orang macam gini,kalau kita tak join gathering ke apa,muncung tuh cepat aja nak mengata kita..lantak pi lah kat diorang nie..Saya datang sini nak belajar,tak ada masa nak ambik pot benda-benda yang tak berfaedah...kalau boring sangat pon,I'd rather play Scrabble with my family dari join mereka-mereka yang dangkal ini..Ok,takat sini dulu,will update again insy esok..oh..oh..opss..lupa..janji nak tunjuk gambar masakan,kan..Nah,nie dier..

       Laksam Kelantan Simple..(20 mins prep)

         Sambal Sotong Special.

999 at 3 a.m!

Heya darlings...sorry semalam tak update blog..because Sunday night tuh I naik ambulans..tau what time?3 a.m.!!!!!

hadoilah..malang nasibku..Dahla I'm at the client's house,panic elderly couple tuh tetengah malam buta ambulans datang.. Yang penting I'm glad I masih dipanjangkan nyawa..syukur Alhamdulillah...What happened? i actually stopped breathing while I was sleeping..So scary okay..I terjaga when I realized that i was not breathing,then I macam suffocated and choked la coz no oxigen kan..Then plus dengan panic lagie...terus dapat panic attack and rasa nak passed out..

Terpaksa dial 999 emergency..time dok cakap dengan operator 999 tuh memang I sure sangat I'm going to passed out any time,terketar-ketar tangan nie..kaki rasa jello..Then terus called my husband,1st time tak angkat,lagila I panic..then he called balik,I explained what happened,dia pon terus gerak Kyra angkat masuk kereta and berdezup datang to my clients house..yang funnynya,dia sampai dulu,then ambulance..but thumbs up la to ambulance pasal less than 10 mins dah sampai..tapie still takleh lawan Michael Schumacher yang memecut tuh..mendahului ambulance..:P

dah ambulance datang,I naik atas ambulance..paramedic ambik blood pressure dengan measure oxigen level,ok terus..heran betol..seriously rasa cam nak mati,hokey masa call 999 tuh..Then paramedic tulis report,they said memang ada case where people stop breathing while sleeping,it is calld sleep apnea..so I was given a report to bring to my GP the next day..dengan hujan lebatnya lagi..dengan husband I sekali naik ambulance..temankan I..adoila..haru!

Then my supervisor arrived..she asked me to go home and rest...sampai rumah my husband ambik pillow and blanket bawak pi sofa in lounge..me and my husband decided to lepak kat TV area aja,malas tido in the room..I pulak phobia nak tido in case I stopped breathing lagie..Then my other half ambik minyak Yu Yee massage my back,my stomach,urut my legs..then tuck me on the sofa..By that time dah almost 5 a.m dah..I couldn't sleep at first,then he came to me and tepuk-tepuk my back..pastuh I tetiba hilang..terlena...cant remembered exactly how but I felt so comfortable..I ada 1 rahsia nak tell you all..hadoila..malu..tapi bagitau ajalah..All this while..selama kahwin nie my husband has to put me to sleep by tepuk2 me like a baby..tak taulah bila startnya but if he didnt do that,memang I susah tido..Bila ada orang tepuk my back..memang letak kepala aja..hilanggg....hahahhaa..

Ok2..sambung story..then I terjaga around 7 a.m..my body aching because tido on the couch,kan..Paling kesian,I saw my husband,lying beside me..On The FLOOR! kesian sungguh I tengok dia..he must have stayed there..I asked him what time he slept..dia kata almost 7am...Rupa-rupanya he was checking on me dia takut I stopped breathing lagi..Hmm..kesian,mesti sejuk dia tido atas lantai..walaupun ada carpet..iskh.. terharu sungguh I...:(

Last night pon he slept at 5 a.m,kejap2 kejap dia masuk check me in the room..But doctor said that I should sleep on my side insted of lying on my bed...so,last night I ikutla,alhamdulillah I ok..semalaman I was resting at home..I was soo exhausted..However,bangun juga masak for buka puasa..Masak simple aja..Gulai Ikan Bawal..jadilah,janji ada lauk,kan..So,darlings,take care...mmuahs..

Secret Project lagie....

Happy workin my dear readers..Surely ramai yang mengantuk pagi Isnin nie kan..I dulu pon gitu jugak..:P Tak bangun sahur nantih lembik,lagipun sunat,kan..Kalau bangun pulak,kadang terbabas sampai MC..huhuhuhu..haru lah..Yang pastinya tomorrow I'm going homeeeeeeeeee...! Apart for the excitement to see my hubby and Kyra,I have a secret project..what else..cooking project la..I'm gonna try to make 3 delicacies that I've never ever made before..from scratch! The 1st one is Popiah Basah..Owh I loveeeee popiah basah soooooooo much..drooling aja tengok kat Kak Lily punya FB..sebijik macam yang i teringin..Mesti you all tertanya since I love it soo much,why never tried it before?The thing is I did..once..and I gave up! teruk kan? I failed with the skin..nak buat kulit popiah basah,tau jadi apa?LEMPENG!!!..:P hadoilah..since then,ahkak surrender dah..never bothered pon..beli aja kat Ipoh..So,armed with determination,I proudly say that I'm gonna try my luck again! Pray for me..yeah

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Secondly,Buah Tanjung nama diberi...this is a sweet delicacy from Kelantan which I love so much! being a sweet-tooth person, this kuih just satisfiy my sugary taste...But the best is yang melt in your mouth .However,ada jugak i terbeli yang keras,so tak syok..Where I got it?Pasar Khadijah Kota Bharu..Everytime we went there,my mom will always buy it for me..apart from Ketupat sotong la..But I dah berjaya buat ketupat sotong the other day..:) So,this one my other half siap pegi cari duck egg lagi to satisfy my cravings...huhuhu

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Thirdly,I nak try buat Laksam Kelantan juga..yang kuah putih tuh..Mostly kat uk nie orang beli laksa kering tuh and buat kuah putih..But not me..I tak suka benda yang tak authentic nie..so,I'm gonna ask my husband to buy a steamer for me so that I can make the laksam itself from scratch..tak da feel guna laksa kering tuhla..so,I need to search high and low for long beans and daun kesum..owh,my friend Nicky got it..I can ask some from him..ngeeeee...best2...

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So,my short term target is nak try buat 3 benda alah nie..jadi tak jadi,kita tunguuuuuuuuuuu yeah..So you all nak beli kuih apa today???