Wordless Wednesday

The Pianist in the making..So proud of you,Kyra..Wished abah was here with us...:( :(

Stress Pon Tak Guna!!

assalamualaikum...Happy Monday my darling readers..mesti rasa malas gila nak pegi keje after 3 days of holiday,kan..macam I lar...Boleh tak on Saturday tuh aku boleh rasa sangap gila dah kat umah..Mana taknya,ulang dari umah ke open house,umah ke open house...sampai serabut kepala pikir bila la nak naik keje..Ke I jek yang semangat waja gila nak pegi keje...korang mesti tak,kan?Hahaahaha

Ok,On Sunday tuh rasa sadis sangat..serabut gila wei,ada la obstacle skets..tak banyak pon but bisa buat I rasa demotivated gila,boring gila,stress sangat..sedih pon ada..nak nangis takda boyprend plaks nak pinjamkan bahu..sadis kan? :P Adoi,so,I macam kucing nak beranakla sensorang dalam bilik tuh dok pikir apala penyelesaian masalah dunia haku nie kan..But,always remember,takda masalah yang takleh diselesaikan..walaupun sadis...kena tempuhi jugak..

Selagi kita hidup kan,selagi tuh akan ada masalah, dah tutup mata,baru lah hilang segala masalah,but timbul plak masalah nak menjawab dengan mungkar nangkir tuh..Lagi haru wei,so,bersyukurla korang still alive and redha lah apa jek masalah Tuhan bagi...kan?? Masalah kat bawah sana lagi sadis,takleh lari mana dah...ya ampun...

Dulu,I memang suka stress,nasik lembik stress,laki lupa beli telo stress,Kyra letak towel basah atas katil stress..hish...nasib la haku takda high blood kan..Tuh menda kecik,kalau datang masalah dunia ke,masalah duit ke,masalah family ke,you can imagine la macamana muka haku jadik kan..memang muka toya cam tak makan setahun,seriuss aja..

Tapi boleh pulak lepas He passed away,haku macam dah jadi orang lain..Ke haku nie ada split personality ke apa..which in a way,malas nak pikir apa dah..Ke I rasa dah takda menda yang important sangat dari dia yang haku nak crack kan kepala hotak pk..Or,maybe kematian dia tuh adalah benda paling sadis,paling berat yang haku kena tanggung so menda-menda lain nie dah nampak macam besar kuman aja..maybe..kan?

But,actually,I was thinking,dok stress and sakit kepala pikir pasal masalah buat mati cepat aja,bukan boleh settle pon..So,I took everything calmly lah...Kot tetiba anak raja mana nak meminang aku,haku redha jeklah,kan..Eh,tiba-tiba! :P

So,korang pon,takyah pikir lah,masalah bf ke,masalah laki ke,masalah duit ke...tuh semua masalah dunia..hidup nie pon nak mati jugak...nak ke alam lain..yang nak semak-semak kepala pikir hal dunia tuh nak buat apa,kan?Baik la korang happy kan diri..Terima dengan tenang semua benda..Bertabahlah..cheh,1st time la pulak guna perkataan nie..poyo kan :P

Ok,hidup jangan stress..esok,if sempat,I wanna share something dengan korang...Kalau-kalau la rasa nak kulit halus mulus...watch out this space esok...Tiada siaran ulangan yek,LIVE tau...I nie bukan rajin sangat nak sharing is caring..Datang mood hantu haku rasa baik hati nak share,baru haku share...

So,korang,kita jumpa balik esok di blog yang sama,keyyyy...Hugs n Kisses..Muahsss!

One in A Million,Trust me..

assalamualaikumm....Hish,I was on leave yesterday..Sebenarnya berkobar gila nak buat WW as my entry,tapi internet connection gila lembap plus I got so many things to settled..Dengan keta masuk worksop la,Thank god papa bawak pegi bengkel and uruskan..so that I can urus segala macam mak nenek hal yang lain..

I wanna share something dengan you all nie..Ingat tak I told you gals about him,being my soul mate..Selain dari both of us selalu think of the same thing,feel the same thing..Ada 1 thing lagi yang macam coincidence or memang it was meant to be...Tak caya?Nie tengok bawah nie..Gila tak?

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Nie his SPM cert..He took his SPM way back in 1989..Kat Sek Men Teknik Alor Setar Kedah.....PERHATIKAN ANGKA GILIRAN DIA WHICH IS 109..

Ok,now,see mine...

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I took my SPM in 1997,8 years after him,in Sek Men Convent Kajang...TENGOK BETUL-BETUL ANGKA GILIRAN SAYA....BERAPA? 109!!!!!

GILA TAK? Memang kot he is my soulmate...ONE IN A MILLION KAN...SADIS!

Just For Your Eyes Only!!

assalamualaikum...hey babes..I missed all of you tau....I'm sorry la mood nak update blog agak suam-suam kuku..Apart from open houses yang nak kena visit,I have so many things in my mind nowadays..Dengan Kyra exam lagie..peninglah..So,how are you gals holding up? Rasa gemok tak musim raya nie?Ya Allah,I felt like I gained 10 kgs ke apa..padahal baru gain 1.5kgs jek,tapi panic mengalahkan apa..:P

Hello,I just bought like 2 pairs of trousers..kengkonon beli one size smaller la..dengan harapan puasa kurus..Puasa memang turun 7 kgs,dah,1st raya balun kaw-kaw kat 10 umah..hampehs..gila lah...I wished I could go back to my anak dara figure la..26-36-26..perghh..gila mantaps,kan..Hahahahaha..tak henggat puji diri sendirik..Takdelah,semua mummy out there pon cenggitu,kan..allignment balancing badan dah berterabur larik kan,especially after giving birth and breast feed..

But tak apalah,tembam pon chomel jugak apa...Nway,I wanna show you something la..exclusive for my blog reader only,jangan pulak kau panggil semua colleagues office kau tayang menda nie..malu siott...

Hahahaha,ok,I went for my honeymoon actually masa Kyra dah 3 months kot..sebabnya takde bajet,bolehh???Hahahaha..Then,I bunting pelamin dengan Kyra,tuh yang pegi bertiga tuh honeymoon..Cheh,kyra memang suka enterframe di mana-mana kan?Takleh nak tengok orang senang skets :P

Ok,drumroll,nak tengok ke-glamouran I tak time preggie Kyra? Nakkk kann??? Ha,ambik nie..Jangan mengutuk wei,tak baik bulan-bulan Syawal nie...:P

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Gila,bergaya tak henggat kan..patut anak aku selalu over kalau bergaya,rupa2nya tunjuk ajarku sifu kannn :P

Ok babes,Happy Tuesday,dah-dah,pegi sambung buat keja.esok kita sambung citer lagi kay..BTW,to Ain yang tegur I time tengah melantak Chicken Rice tu,nice meeting you,sweetheart..Kalau you all terjumpa I ke,tegurla ye,I love meeting new friends..Sayanggg Korang,muahhss!

Confused...

assalamualaikum darlings...hish,dah nak Jumaat balik,kan..My days were full with eating activity ajer...Heran sungguh napa jadi selera sangat nak makan..padahal time puasa tuh,selera jadi mati..boleh jek makan pau sambal time bukak puasa..nasik memang tak lalu langsung..Now,nie makan..makan..makan..

Ok,I soo need to start exercising tomorrow (Kalau rajinn)...I got so many things to tell you guys..but macam tak tercerita..My mind is elsewhere...Most of the time,fikiran nie terbang ke Norwich...I'm imagining the roads..the city centre...semuanya...

Macam fresh gila...certain songs just reminded me of him...certain smells...Maybe I'm lying to myself kot..trying to move on,when I never did pon...I miss him like crazy..Sometimes I just sit in the corner of my room and imagining him hugging me...and it hurts...damn it hurts my soul...my heart is bleeding and I felt the sharp pain through my vein...:(

The loneliness and emptiness is killing me...I don't wanna wished he is still here sebab taknak melawan hukum tuhan..but gosh,I missed him so much and if he'd still here,I don't have to go through what I'm going through now..

I think most of the time,its just for Kyra...Me?it doesn't matter anymore...:(

Perlu Ke Citer Raya???

assalamualaikum...Tuesday today..arghhh,I'm so sleepy,and I got lotsa work to do..Boy just flown back to Amsterdam last night..hish,cemana pulak boleh miss him nie..hahahaha..:P Today busy,abis kerja nak melepak umah my friend pulak kat Klang...Semalam sampai umah dah pukul berapa dah....PENAT SANGAT!

I malas nak cerita raya sebabnya diet haku dah terkantoi...Gila makan macam haper..dahla posa lost 7 kgs..tup tup makan raya sehari naik 5 kgs apa...haru lahh...Nak tau on the 1st day raya tuh,we went to like almost 10 houses...Memula melantak breakfast hotel...aku tibai Nasik Kuning dengan Ayam Masak Merah..dengan teh tarik lagie...Then Nasi Dagang,Gulai Ikan tongkol dengan Telur,Gulai Ayam,Ayam Madu,Mee Kari,Laksam,Lontong,Nasik Himpit Kuah Kacang,Ketupat Palas and Rendang,Nasi Beriani,Sambal Ayam,Ayam Masak Merah,Satay Ayam...Ok,tu belom campur menyumbat segala jenis kueh raya dan kek-kek sedap,ok....Cemana ek aku boleh sumbat sebanyak tuh makanan dalam perut aku,especially nasik??NGERI wei!

Tak berani nak telek perut sendirik,pasti moncet kan...huh...nampaknya aku kena diet and cepat-cepat puasa 6 dah nie...sebelum baju-baju Vogue semua ketat metat...Ok,meen,petang nie kena pegi swimming 10 laps ok..eh,petang nie open house lagie...aiyarkkkkkkkk!! SAVE ME!!!

Korang nak tengok gambar raya I dengan Kyra ke...belom upload sangatt lagi,nie jek ada...jadiklah jamu mata,kann???

The 4 of us...Sorang lagi,Boy jadik tukang tangkap gambar. Sekian.

P/S: Apsal I buat aksi manja kucing tuh? Gediks kan? :P

Hours Of Separation

asalaamualaikum...Happy working yer my darling readers...Serious takde mood nak kerja today..I'm so tired pusing Malaysia nie...letih,lesu,semua ada..Bestnya if I could take another week and just sleep..Hahaha,nampak sangat kaki tido,kannn..:P

My Raya was ok..not so great lah..you know why lah..but I'm blessed with family members around me..If you asked me,of course I do harap he was with us..macam biasa..but it is so mustahil kan..so,I pass jelah....Did I cry pagi raya..Of course..that one tak boleh dielakkan...but mild one lah,takdalah meraung bagai...

Owh...I realise yang I'm so sensitive now...sikit benda jek dah sentap..dah terasa..dah emo...semalam,tiba-tiba emo sampai kuar segala isi perut...you wanna know why? Tengok bawah:-

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That was his grave..kat Norwich,UK..yang bend down tuh Makcik Umi,she stayed there and she visited him sambil tolong-tolong cabut rumput..I was supposed to be there,ok,especially time raya..sadis tak sadis?SADISSSSSSSSSSSLAHHHHHHH...Hish,I hate the fact that I'm not around,hate the fact that I didn't bring him back..hate the fact that we are not together..


I felt like it was just yesterday that I saw him..Padahal dah 9 bulan tak bercakap,tak bercerita,tak bercinta..I felt that I just kissed him..I just lost in his arms..Padahal dah almost a year dah...Sometimes the pain is so unbearable..tak tertanggung..

Tuhan dah takdirkan that he's gonna leave me,ujian yang paling memeritkan untuk aku tanggung,perit,pedih,derita..segala semua yang tak best tuh aku rasa..Ada hari rasa pedih macam nak mati,ada hari rasa taknak bangun langsung,ada hari rasa nak menangis aja dari pagi sampai malam..

 Ok,dah penat nak jiwa kacau,Dr Derek Shepherd,please come and kiss me now and blow away my sadness and worries..:)

P/S: Bila orang lain panggil aku Meen selain dari dia,aku rasa pelik..sangat pelik..apakah??

Raya Yang Merdeka

assalamualaikum my darling readers..Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin semua...Hope semua happy la spend time dengan keluarga dan sanak saudara tersayang..Me on the other hand,gila penat..My pre-raya kan kat Perlis..so,2 days before Raya I dah lepak perlis,tido umah MIL,yang dikelilingi gunung-ganang dan keindahan desa..chewahh..Gila sejuk and for the 1st time,I didn't even switch on the aircond..padahal I memang tak boleh tido kalau tak ada aircond..Best kan?Mandi air yang di tadah dalam besen besar..Gila punya sejuk..dah macam air telaga aku rasa..Cheh,ok,agak over disituh :P

Then,buka puasa bersama my biras baru..jangan marah..muda belia lagi hokey,nama dia Incik Hafiz..But unfortunately I didn't take any photo with him..what a shame,Meen..Hish..But yang best mestilah lepak ramai-ramai kan..dengan ipar duai,biras,MIL and FIL..Even though it is a short stay,I enjoyed myself to da max..

And before balik,sempat lagi haku berderap dengan bro and sis in law to Pekan Rabu,AS.Walaupun haku kawen dengan oghang Utara dah 10 tahun,sekali pon tak pernah jejak pekan Rabu..Why?Sebab my husband tak suka tempat sesak,ramai orang and susah parking,dia semak kepala..Dan haku pon takde menda nak beli pon..

But the other day,I came with a mission..and Ayu pulak nak beli pekasam ada orang pesan.Me pulak,mama nak kain semayang.So,I bought 3 pieces for my mom la..mama punya pasal,hujan lebat pon haku redah jugak nak beli kain tuh...And boleh pulak sempat aku beli cotton shawl and inner..last-last tersilap pilih kaler hijau..hampehs!

Ok,gambar raya nantih-nantih yer..nie baru citer pasal pre-raya..So,below gambar dekat Pekan Rabu dengan sissyku,Ayu..Layann la dulu sementara I upload gambar Raya key?

Me and Ayu

Apa pekasam kau nak?Lampam?Puyu?Sepat...semua ada

Borong Kuih Raya dengan dodol..Wei,Samperit dia terbaekk la!!

I..woh,pipi masih tembam macam Kuih Kaswi bak kata papa aku..hish :P