I'm No Superwomen

assalamualaikum....I'm sorry this gonna be a super short entry...To my readers yang beragama islam,ada few days lagi untuk puasa sunar Rejab yer sayang2 sekalian..So,take this opportunity kerana Bulan Rejab adalah bulan Allah...

Can't write long...tersangat sedih malam nie..I was browsing through my FB masa Kyra solat isya'...Then lepas solat,its her routine sedekah fatihah and doa for her abah..but tonight I terperasan its longer than the usual one..Then..bunyi sok sek sok sek..I called her softly..She was crying..makin lama makin kuat...I dah bergenang dah...Macam dah agak whats on her mind..

I called her...she then ran to me and put her face on my lap and cry like mad.."I missed abah so much"....Oh Tuhan,here we go again....:( I can count how many times she cried since her dad passed away...In this 6 months,just 3,4 times aja..so,kalau dia menangis,memang dia dah tak tahan sangatlah tu...

Bila dia jadi emo,serta merta,mama jadi double emo..Both of us..cry like mad..hugging each other..Serious rasa macam nak hantuk kepala kat dinding..rasa macam nak cakap kat Allah take me instead,so that my anak wont suffer like this..But she can't live without me anyway..:(

ya Allah,this pain is so unbearable...Bila Kyra jadi gitu,i akan balik to square one...kesian Kyra...I can feel her pain,her misery...Loosing her dad pada usia yang sangat mentah is a challenge for her...And she was being strong for me all this while...But,she just give in today..mesti dah berat sangat derita dalam dada dia yang dia dah tak mampu nak hold...

Duhai anak...tenanglah sayang...Mama pun sayang abah...sangat-sangat..Tak pernah sehari pun berlalu Mama tak ingatkan abah..13 tahun mama dengan abah...Pedih mama,Allah aja yang tahu....My 1st love....berakhir macam ni...No one will understand our pain,adik..Just us...Sebab abah tu abah terbaik buat adik dan suami terbaik buat mama..

My darling husband,we are sorry that we cried over you..We know you won't like it..But we just can't hold our pain anymore...The tears we cried helped us to lighten the burden..just for a lil while...Please wait for us...May us be together for eternally..You,Me and Kyra...

The Love of My Life...Their closeness...I just can't go on anymore :(

"Pleasure of Love Last But a moment,but the Pain of love lasts a lifetime"