I've Made It Through...

assalamualaikum...Happy Tuesday darlingssssss...Mesti korang perasan mood ala-ala sendu jek nak update my blog,kan..Bukan apa,I was too occupied dengan segala macam benda..nie pon Kyra punya Kaftan and kasut tak jugak dapat lagie ha...hish...And work pulak..adoi,memang tengah banyak kerja...Diam tak diam,cuti raya jeklah nanti,kan...Tuh pon siap kene buat list ha umah sapa nak kene pegi..Lama kan tak beraya kat my kampong...

These 3 days had been a real challenge for me...I almost thought that its gonna be impossible for me to made it through his birthday...Macamla dulu after his passings,rasa sangat mustahil nak go through his funeral..then rasa mustahil nak melepaskan seminggu..But now,walau dalam sadis,perit,seksa,I've made it through..Its been almost 9 months now..walaupun setengah mati...walaupun sadis gila nak bangun pagi2...hish..:(

Ok,ada 2 lagi hazab nak kene go through this year..1st would be malam and pagi raya tuh..1st time nak masak rendang segala dia tak lepak tolong I kat dapur masak sesama...Usually,settle jek masak,he would be the one yang kelam kabut ambik pinggan and 'rasmikan' my rendang...It was his favourite...cecah dengan nasik himpit...or that Adabi lemang instant....Then of course pagi raya tak dapat salam and cium tangan dia and nanges-nanges sebab banyak dosa kan...huhuhu..Part sadis is when he hugged me lepas I ngongoi mintak ampun tu..He will say.."Abang maafkan Meen..dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki..Abang pun minta maaf kat Meen"...hish,taknak ingatlah,buat haku trauma sajork.

The 2nd hazab was our wedding Anniversary on the 21st of October nie..adoi..It shud be our 11th..Lantaklah,should ke tak,I'm still gonna assume its our 11th..he's still here what with me..kan?In my heart..So,me and Kyra still gonna celebrate it..la..like we celebrated his 39th Birthday the other day...Maybe next year traume tu lessen kot sebab dah 2nd time kan..Ke lagi teruk??Hish,janganlaaaaaaaaaa...:(

But I syukur sangat kat Allah,walau 3 days nangis sampai bengkak bijik mata,then sampai tertido,I managed to go through his Birthday..mampu jugak nak senyum and melangkah kaki kan...So,syukur I diberi that kekuatan..Dalam gundah gulana tu,I stay near to Him..Nak sedih jek baca Quran and istighfar..Alhamdulillah,I got better..

And of course,support dari orang-orang tersayang..kan...TQ la korang sebab push me,motivates me,sabarkan me...tenangkan me...can't thank you enough..Korang memang best la..You rock,bebeh! Ok,enjoy the pics below yeah.Credit to my sis in law.Suasana my sis and bro's 7 Anniversary cum My husbands 39 Birthday..

To My Darling baby...Happy 39th Birthday,sayang..I seriously feel that you were there with us..perhaps,u are?

Venue;Red Card Cafe Bangi

Date:21st August 2011

Buffet Ramadhan@RM20 per adult....