Angel Of Mine....

assalamualaikum...I slept the whole morning today..most probably due to the fact that I didn't sleep that well last night..Went out to clinic to enquire bout blood test.I felt giddy and nausea this 2,3 days...and after sugar test,I realised that my sugar level was low..way too low.Maybe that's why rasa macam nak pengsan...adoila......:(

Hari nie I try nak cakap psl happy thoughts la skets...sebabnya,penat dah menangis everytime I update blog nie.Firstly, Sorry,I taknak guna perkataan 'late husband' sebab rasa pedih nanti.My husband nie is an artist tau..bukan artist pelakon ke penyanyi ker..he's talented in arts..Very good at drawing...very good at poetry and he can play several musical instruments like guitar,drums,piano,keyboards,etc. I read one of the poem he wrote to me before,dated September 2000.Mak ai,syahdu hati nie..Tipu la kalau I cakap I tak nangis..

Cemana mamat nie pikat hati I?One day I tengah atas bus..he called me up,and played his guitar and sang Belaian Jiwa..of course la I tangkap cintan..Ayat power tau mamat nie..Dia bleh cakap apa tau kat I..dia tak percaya I takda boyfriend masa kenal dia..Dia cakap,its okla if you ada boyfriend lain pun,I tak kisah share you..asalkan I dapat jugak dengan you.Gila ke haper mamat nie?

What I love about him is..taulah lelaki melayu payah nak cari yang romantic,ada pun sekerat dua aja,and he is one of them..Dia nie bukan time belum dapat kita aja dia penyayang,dah kahwin 10 tahun pun,dia still bukakkan pintu kereta,put my jacket on,ikatkan my shoe lace..Cam terbalik pulak,patut I pulak yang buat,kan.And dia sangat ringan tulang buat kerja rumah,basuh and sidai baju,basuh pinggan,kemas dapur,masak..

Memang la susah nak cari orang gini..:(

And dulu kalau I tak boleh tidur malam,he will sing and tepuk2 sampailah I tertidur..So now cemanalah I nak tidur malam?? Haru tak haru??? The first time he asked me to be his gf,kan.We were talking over the phone.I was in Sg Wang,dia kat Langkawi la keje at that time.Tetiba dia tanya whether I could be his gf?I said I gotta think 1st(saja poyo..jual mahal kunun..padahal hati tuh dah tergedik2)..I said,call me again lain kali and I'll give the answer.

Boleh pulak he called me 10 mins later and asked again..So,I answered yes.The weirdest thing he ever did for me was when my dad got sick,he took the 1st bus from Kedah,6 hrs journey,console me for 2 hrs and go back to kedah again..Terharu hokey....Then ada pulak kejadian time kat A&W tuh,I boleh pulak tercalarkan jam Casio yang dia paling sayang.Pucat lesi muka I that time..Dia cakap,dia lagi sayang I than that jam.

Darn..now I baru remember something..Dia selalu tanya I soalan nie tau.."yang,you tau tak I sayang you"? I cakap,"Tak".EEi,teruknya you nie,dia cakap.."Takpe,satu hari nanti I mati pasal you,baru la you tau I sayang kat You".Me?SPEECHLESS.....:(